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Just a MOM!
One that loves to take the mind and body to
places some find unimaginable!
One that loves Challenge!
For those
who know me in our ultra running community, I'm Shannon, another
competitor in the sport, and the woman who doubled Badwater. For
those outside of the sport, i.e. my neighbors, carpool moms, sponsors,
friends and acquaintances, see me as this crazy woman who runs 100 mile
ultra marathons, and "why do I do this" is the question they seem to
ask. "Because I can" for one, but allow me to explain...
I was never
an athlete in school, just a feisty little tom boy. I had a pony
when I was 10 years old and would ride everywhere, just Sadie and I.
I loved being outside with her and feeling my independence as I would
ride her bareback for miles and miles. My horse was taken away
when we moved to Lake Tahoe. A great place to live as a child and
to be exposed to the outdoors. My friends and I rode
motorcycles in the summer and snowmobiles in the winter, cross country
skiing was the PE class and yes, I walked a mile in the snow to the bus
stop everyday! How adventure could only be a part of my life, it's
so plain to see. We moved back to LA, but kept the Lake Tahoe
house, so now here I am in Los Angeles and me the teenager, a bike and
skateboard became my new means of transportation. Not quite the
same as Sadie and that "tom boy" really kicked in, this was obvious when
most of my girlfriends wanted to go shop and get their nails done, I
wanted to practice my 360 on my skateboard. Pippi Longstocking at
the time was my idol, she had it all; the horse, the independence, the
adventure, and I wanted that!
I had no
interest or experience with running until my thirties... Fast Forward to
me sitting on the couch, 30 something years old, nursing my son, still
carrying quite a bit of my pregnancy weight, always wondering how could
I lose this weight while I was relishing in the fact that I was a mom,
just a mom! I was so happy and fortunate that I could spend each moment
with my new baby. Here we were, my baby and I watching the LA Marathon
on TV, and all I could say is "why would anyone want to run 26 miles".
The next morning I woke up thinking about those crazy people running the
marathon and later that day while I was at the market, I picked up a
Runner's magazine. As I quickly read through the pages, I came
across an ad with a little bald girl and the Leukemia Society ad read,
"Run for Me". I looked at this little girls beautiful face, and
that was all I needed. I contacted the Leukemia Society and
started to train with the coach they provided, raised money, and in
return, I "can" and "will" become a marathon runner. I thought how
cool would that be, there's not a lot of people that can say "I run
marathons". I made the commitment, met with the coach and Team In
Training at the high school track, and my daily 1 mile turned into 3, 6,
10 and before I knew it, I was covering the entire valley.
Neighbors were telling me that they saw me running 15 miles away from
home. With pride, I told them I was training for a marathon, some
laughed, many were excited, and I was hooked and looking forward to run
my first marathon. I jumped into every local 5k and 10k, ran a
half marathon, and now I loved having the race bib to put on. I
once collected perfume bottles, now I'm collecting race bibs, ribbons,
and medals. I ran my first marathon at 34 years old, a 3:45 at LA
Marathon in the pouring rain, but what an incredible experience, not to
finish, but taking my body through 26 miles of new territory. I
ran several more marathons, started competing in triathlons, was invited
to be the only female team member in a 1 day adventure race, and
realized, it was the running that I truly love and that at mile 20 when
most people were hurting, is when I start to feel good.
I asked
around if there was anything beyond the 26 miles and learned about Ultra
Marathons. I was pleased to hear about 50k's. At this point
100 mile ultra marathons was not even a thought in my mind. I
immediately started training on the trails since I was told this is the
terrain most ultras are on. I loved being in nature, running
through mountains, and streams and wondering if I will see a mountain
lion, snake, or any animal who's neighborhood I was in. I loved
the thrill of it all! I ran my first 50k, known as Bulldog,
considered to be a tough 50k, but it was a 5 minute drive from home and
I knew my family could come watch me cross the finish line. This was the
most amazing feeling, running through the mountains with less than 100
other competitors on the trails, not the typical 20,000 runners on the
pavement, and just being so in touch with nature and the outdoors is
what captivated my mind. I will admit there were times when I was
a bit nervous, being alone, and would think, am I alone? Signs
were posted of mountain lions in the area and still I wasn't use to
this, I was a city girl. I finished (5:51) 4th or 5th woman, I forgot, I
don't really keep track, but I felt satisfied with my run. After the finish, I talked about the
experience to everyone I knew for days, many stopped calling for some
strange reason, could it be they were tired of my story? Any way, I
immediately looked for the next race. I loved the 50ks, they were
fast, short and what I heard from a few other ultra runners, not
considered a true "ultra marathon"...I felt I was constantly being
challenged to see what I was made of, not only by myself, but the
sport...Shortly after, I realized, I needed, I had to have, and I wanted
more!!! So typical of my life...
My next
plan was to do a 50 miler, and here I was taking the necessary baby
steps to reach the ultimate goal, the 100 mile. I was in denial
about ever wanting to run 100 miles, fear took over and although it was
a fantasy, I just couldn't think of doing such a thing, the unknown,
what must a body go through and running through the night, when I still
need to put the hall light on during the night...I just wanted to enjoy
the 50 milers for a while, starting at sunrise and spending the day
overcoming the mind and body battles, getting over the hurtles, not the
one's that stand 4 feet high and are
not meant to be knocked over as you sprint, but the one's that
are 4 feet low, as you pace yourself, and are meant to be knocked
down, just to be picked up, to see there's another, and another. I
saw how powerful the mind is when it needs to be, (exactly that...when
it needs to be) and used this to my advantage with never letting myself
quit when I was down in a 4 foot hurtle. Crossing the Leona Divide
50 mile finish line in just over 11 hours was a major accomplishment for
me. I once thought that a 26 mile marathon was unimaginable, now I'm
running almost twice the distance, and throwing in the thousands of feet
of elevation gain. Here I was again, looking for the next race,
but now my kids were bragging to their friends, teachers anyone who
would listen about their mom who can run 50 miles and she runs through
the mountains. I saw the pride in their eyes, and heard it in their
voice, unaware at the time how this feeling will be used to my advantage
in my upcoming races.
I actually
came to, when I was on a flight to Colorado, yes leaving home, to do my
second 50 miler and realized I was addicted to the sport, yet felt so
lucky to have found this passion in my life, in my thirties...Thoughts
of my kids at home as I was away would sometimes blanket the excitement
of it all, but I felt this was for everyone's benefit, I mean, if mom
isn't happy, no one's happy! I made sure everyone at home was left
happy, taken care of, and that my husband would take pictures of our
kids weekend sport competitions that I was missing...I ran the double
marathon in Colorado and came in 4th woman with competitors use to the
altitude and I lived at sea level. The race director told me when
I finished, that I ran each loop faster than the last as it was 4 loops
of 13 miles, and then he told me I need to run the 100 milers, I replied
"no way". The flight home allowed me time to think, to realize 50
miles felt good, and to understand that I need to run 100 milers.
I ran a couple more 50 miler's to finish the year, placing in the top 10
overall woman in most of my competitions up to this point....Coming in
3rd overall woman in the San Juan 50 mile trail run was and still is one
of my hardest 50's, as I pushed so hard, fell so bad, and came into the
finish so strong. I tell my running group today, "it's not how you
start, it's how you finish" and love to share with them my scars on my
leg from that fall and how I quickly had to get up as I had someone
seconds on my back and all this work wasn't going to 4th place...
I looked
for that next race, but now it's double the distance of my most recent
50's. The 100 miler that I was so fearful of. Most
"normal" ultra runners would continue with the baby steps and complete a
100k (62 miles) after a few 50's before jumping into a 100 miler, but I
was excited, gladly adopting this new feeling of confidence, and saw
that the next race that I wanted to conquer, was a 100 miler. I
thought I'm not 20 years old, I'm 37 and attempting to run my first 100
miler, where was I 10 years ago? I had a friend Jennifer Janis, who ran
all these crazy 50's with me, her old boyfriend was Ben Hian, who was a
champion in the sport, she crewed and paced him and knew how to take
care of a runner during a 100 miler. I asked if she would pace me
in my first 100 miler, the Rocky Raccoon 100 mile, 5 loops of 20.2 miles
in Texas, and she was just as excited as I. To this day, she has
been, one of my most favorite pacers, she was compassionate, and tough
at the same time, she knew when to brutally push me and when to lovingly
take care of me. She told me to slow down in the little over 3
hour 20 mile loops that I was running, since I had 80 then 60 more miles
to go, each loop I added a few more minutes to my time, and I told her I
felt great. In this particular race, a pacer can run the last 38
miles with the runner, and she was there to let me know I was going too
fast in the beginning, and that I would pay for it later. At mile 62, I
asked her "when is it going to hurt"? The kiss of death, if you
ask me and this hit me at mile 70 with bloody blistered feet wrapped in
duct tape, and never running through the night with my fears of
darkness, slowed me down. I thought what a cool chic Jennifer was
to pop my blisters and take care of me like she did, I don't think they
do this where I come from. I had to dig deep to finish this 100, but my
pacer Jennifer wouldn't let me quit and I wanted to, so bad. Those
proud words from my children that I had cherished and how I couldn't let
them down, captivated my thoughts, over and over. I could see
their faces gleaming with pride and missed them so much, now they were
my comfort zone. Gabriel Flores who was also pacing a runner,
approached my pacer Jennifer and I at mile 80 when I was thinking of
every excuse to quit, and the words "I'm done, no more, my life is
so good at home, what am I doing here", constantly battered my mind and
conversation, and Gabriel told me to "shut up, everyone is hurting, if
you quit you will feel this forever, and you only have a few more hours
of suffering". Somehow knowing that I wasn't the only one
suffering, made me go on. My husband and children, and the
children with cancer, the charity that I was running for, I knew I
had to go on and how would I explain to all these people who gave me
love, donations and support , that I quit because I was tired and
hurting, the children with cancer who not only do I run for, but I
volunteer at the hospital and hold them, they can't quit when they hurt
and feel tired, how could I... I finished Rocky Raccoon in just over 28
hours and even I couldn't believe it. I ran 100 miles...WOW!
I touched every part of my soul, every part of ME! I came home
with this new ego, I felt like I was on top of the world, and if I can
run 100 miles, I can do anything, as I witnessed the "power of the
mind". So now, here I was looking for that next 100...I ran a couple
more 100's, finally ran that 100K, ran more and more races, raised
thousands of dollars for all my favorite charities, had a national
commercial, infomercials and was recognized as "just a mom who runs 100
mile races", my favorite title to this day! So what's next for
me..
I had just
finished a 50 mile race, which now was what I considered good training
runs for the 100's. I think back when I couldn't even imagine
running 100 miles, and now I'm constantly fantasizing about my next.
As I was leaving to drive home, saying good bye to all the runners, I
had to thank another runner Denise, for giving me this special drink
while I was throwing up during the race. Her husband was also
there at the finish and told me that I should run Badwater, I told him
"no way, I'm not that crazy". Both of them have done
Badwater, a 135 mile race through Death Valley in July, known to be the
world's toughest foot race, and
me I couldn't' even think of this, I just wanted to get in my car, drive home and get to my family.
The 5 plus hour drive was Badwater boggling, and the thought of now
running 135 miles, through Death Valley in July, was just sick, yet I
couldn't stop thinking about it, and 5 hours of time alone driving,
allows one's mind to go to some weird places. Where I went was
visualizing running Badwater, trying to picture the heat, the pavement,
running the world's toughest ultra marathon, and of course crossing the
finish line. In those 5 hours, I crossed the finish line 10 times,
and it felt better each time. Now what was wrong with me?
Why couldn't 100 miles be enough?
I spoke to
a few friends and found out my one friend Jay was running Badwater that
July, 2 months away. I asked if I could be a part of his team,
crew or pace him, anything, just to be there, and knew this would be a
chance to see what kind of torture I was putting my self into. I
couldn't wait to get to the desert, and feel the heat. Jay is such
a smart runner and I knew he'd run a good race. Tom Neilson ( a
champion 100 miler), Tracy and I would take turns pacing Jay. I was also
in charge of blisters, and when Jay told me he felt a "hot spot", I
asked to take care of it. So here we were climbing up Towne's
Pass, my body was cringing on the thought of popping someone else's
blisters, I mean for many years I've changed poopy diapers, took care of
rashes, splinters, kissing boo boos, being the medical loving mom that I
am, was my life, but this was different, Jay wasn't my blood. Jay
had a blister the size of a lemon, I looked at him and only wanted to
make him feel better, I knew how much I loved him and how I truly was an
ultra runner when I popped it and took care of him...To this day he
tells me that my blister care saved his race, that makes my day! I
also took this opportunity time to pick Tom's brain and asked many
questions, as if he wasn't tired enough as it was. We were already
into the next day in the race, 24 hours, and none of us had slept yet,
our goal was to get Jay to the finish and that's it! I asked Tom,
if he hurts when he runs the 100's and told him my strategy of when I
start a 100 mile race, I never say "I'm going to run 100 miles today",
but instead I tell myself that I'm going to run 4 marathons, and after
the first, I only have 3, then 2, then 1, and that was easier on my
mind. He told me he breaks the 100's down even more than that with
getting from aid station to aid station, which can be 5 to 20 miles
apart, depending on the race. I knew I would take his words into
my next 100...Jay had finished Badwater 8th overall, looked great
and I felt honored to be part of his team, popping his blisters, running
with him, and that this validated my Badwater fantasy. During the
race I spoke with the couple Ben and Denise, that originally put the
thought into my mind, we exchanged numbers and became Badwater friends.
I told them and everyone else, I want to do Badwater, and I couldn't
wait for the day to send in my entry and hope to be selected.
After a couple months of running races, and secretly training for
Badwater, the same woman, Denise who gave me the drink that saved my
stomach during the 50 miler, called and told me she had a very crazy
proposition. I was afraid of this, I sat down and listened to her
words...At first I couldn't believe she believed in me to even want me
to double the race, when I haven't even done the one way. I asked
what was involved with training, the race and what does it mean.
She told me that no woman has doubled the official Badwater race, I
would be the first, and she would be my crew captain if I would do it.
She explained about the sauna training I needed to do along with every
thing else the next 9 months had in store. I looked at the
upcoming months training as a pregnancy and now I just wanted to see
what this baby's going to look like...Here I am, training to run not 135
miles, but 292 miles, and this scared me to death. Wouldn't it you?
Denise came
to my house where I took care of her since she had surgery on her foot.
She gave me information on the race and how to run the double and told
me that competitors have 60 hours to finish Badwater and since I was
doing the double, I should finish in 59:59, in my mind, I didn't want to
do that, but I understood her plan for pacing the double. I
didn't want to think of the double, but instead do the race, and if I
felt good, the summit and if I felt good the return, although I knew in
my mind I would do the double, just didn't want to go there, yet...even
though between you and I, I had crossed the finish line, reached the
summit and ran back to Badwater numerous times, I needed to visualize
this over and over, it is what helps me through the process. I
trained running 100 milers, 24 hour track runs, going any where there
was heat over 100 degrees to train for the day and the month before
spent an hour in the sauna for an hour each day, teaching my body how to
process fluids, just running in circles in the sauna and drinking water.
I loved the focus I had going on, but felt bad for being so detached
from my home life, or was I?
The day
came and here I was at the starting line of the Badwater135 mile race.
I felt confident, and excited, although my crew van had a flat driving
to the start, and I looked at this as I was going to have a good day!
I went thorough the typical ups and downs, had some good bloody
blisters, threw up, but not a lot, and got to the finish line in 51
hours with my family being there. I came in 5th woman, and
couldn't believe I just ran Badwater. The one person I owe this finish
to is Jay, I couldn't have done it without him he knew me, and took care
of me so wonderfully, I feel like he's my birthing coach...I had such a
great crew, all of them were the best, Kari made me laugh, Denise made
it happen, Phil and Richard gave me a feeling of comfort, and Michelle,
Scott, Luke and Alexis filled in the areas needed.
We started
our summit at 2:00 am, and I felt energized with my next attempt. The
weather was great going up the mountain, and the experience I had with
my crew was something I'll never forget, I could not have done this
without them. They were great, even though a few of them got sick on the
top of Whitney and Kari's (my crew girl) husband, Phil and I came down together. Phil
and I felt great we were laughing and running down the 99 switch backs,
that we climbed just hours before. I was surprised my body felt
this good. I had a fall in a creek crossing and my shin
swelled up so bad, and so quickly. I thought what a great way to
get out of going back to Badwater, and depending on how I felt when I
got back to the portals, I might have to use this excuse. We ran
out of water and were drinking from anywhere we could get it, and the
green chunky water we filtered would have to do. I thought I was
done after 157 miles, happy to just do the race, and the summit, but
then I had to sleep for an hour, my first real sleep in 3 days, and a
new freaky, revived person came out, I wanted to go back to Badwater,
and I wanted to go back right away, no down time, no way to allow my
body to feel comfort. My younger son was crying for me to come
home and I felt so bad to see him this way, and not be able to comfort
him on the way home, at this point I was detached from any feelings, in
order not to feel pain, or pleasure. A place I had to go to do the
double. My husband and kids went back home anticipating that I wasn't
going to look so good, so my crew and I headed back to Badwater. I
wrapped my shin in a ice filled wrap and my feet were bloody and
blistered, but this didn't stop me. I never felt so amazing in my
life to see what I can do, 292 miles on foot, and at times begging for a
scorpion to sting me, just so I couldn't quit, but instead had to be
taken away, taken from this pain I was enduring for days. What
saved me for the last stretch where it was reaching 130 degrees and
60-80 mph head winds, was at mile 250, Stove Pipe Wells, when I saw a
phone booth and thought it was an hallucination, but felt it, rubbed it,
knew it was real, I called my son collect and when I heard his voice, I
broke down, I cried, I wanted his comfort, I was in so much pain, I was
lonely, uncomfortable and wanted to be with my family where it was safe.
I couldn't stop crying, but didn't want my crew to see me weak. He
asked if I was done, I told him no, and I couldn't go on anymore, and I
hurt, he asked how many more miles did I have to go, and I told him 42,
he told me "please mom, don't quit, you can do it, I love you"...I hung
up the phone and could have ran 250 more miles...That next day I had
reached the Badwater sign, where I started just a week before, and if I
could find the word to explain the feeling, I would , but I can't, there
is no such word, just a feeling that I will always cherish. I
couldn't have done this without the crew I had, they were so giving of
their time and expertise, and I thank them for giving me this
opportunity in my life. Kevin Setnes (a world class runner and the
USA 100k team coach) coached me for the double, and I listened to his
strategy on how to run the race, and my last phone call before we ran
out of cell reception was to Kevin as we were driving to the race,
his words and my words of "you can do it" carried me through the
entire time I was out there. My kids love to tell their friends, coaches
and teachers, how their mom ran from Badwater to the top of Mt. Whitney
and back. I guess all it takes is to believe in yourself a little
bit, and you can go so far...this is what I express to my kids.
I ran
another 100 mile race, 2 months after Badwater, you know feeling like I
was "super human" and tore my hamstring, since I wasn't recovered and
dogs chased us as we were lost at mile 80 and my pacer and I had to jump
over a fence, I can still feel the tear today, it was painful...I then
came back 4 months later to run another 100 miler and took off 3
hours of my best 100 mile time, which I owe to Badwater and the
confidence it gave me as a runner, because I knew if I could just
push myself (try) I could do better and faster in my sport. My
coach Kevin, told me if I do the Badwater double, it'll be hard to
be satisfied by anything else, he was right, and the 3 hour PR meant
nothing, now I just want to beat it, and I will.
Just a
little update, July 13, 2005... I just ran the Badwater135 mile race,
only the 1 way (135 miles), and came home with a "sub 48 hour" finishers
buckle. The official cut off time is 60 hours to complete the
race, and you get a finishers medal. Runners who finish under 48
hours receive a medal and the "sub 48 hour" buckle. This was one
of my many goals that I needed to achieve in my lifetime. On August
27th, I ran my first 100 mile solo run, another dream of mine. You
can view the pictures on my website under "what's new". Three
weeks later, On September 18th, I finally finished the Angeles Crest 100
mile endurance run, the one that so proudly put me in the hospital the
year prior with 3 IV's and 10 minutes from cardiac arrest, according to
the doctor. Either Angeles Crest kicks your butt, or you kick its,
this year I kick it's ass! My marathon training group began
training for the LA Marathon the following month, and just 5 months
later on March 6th, 2006, I took 22 runners who I've coached to start
and finish LA Marathon, most of them first timers. My goal each
year is to double the amount of people from the year before, to train
and finish LA Marathon! So by the year 2012, I hope to have
a group of 1600 runners at LA Marathon, hopefully I'll have that amount,
but sooner...If you'd like to run a marathon, contact me, I guarantee a
finish!
I'm so
thankful for the gift I have and hope my story inspires you to
challenge yourself, live a little, and be your best..
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